I found the perfect spot in the library, away from all the bustle. I was thirty-one with two little boys at home and badly needing a day away to think. I can’t quite remember if my second relapse had hit me yet, but I knew I was in much need of rest. I found the perfect spot next to an enormous glass window overlooking the pond. While sitting on a little couch tucked under the stairwell, I asked the Father to please guide me to do the right thing. “Cause, I desperately want to do the right thing.” I took out my journal, my pencil, my Bible, and Bonhoeffer’s book, Life Together.
The book had been on the shelf for years, but I hadn’t ever read it, thinking it was too “theological” for me to enjoy. It’s not a very big book but, as I found, it is chock full of truth and wisdom for the church body to discern what living this life together “should” be like. It’s a book that radically changed the way I understood I am to “be” in the body. Practical spiritual wisdom for everyday life together.
God was faithful to guide me. I understood the admonishment from scripture, “as much as it depends upon you, be at peace with one another.” With tears streaming down my face, I wrote out the apology, understanding a heart-rending-deep-cleansing had been done.
God made it clear to me what the next step would be. The apology was sent and now it was time to hope for reconciliation. It was time to release the situation in order that Christ might deal…
“…spiritual love proves itself in that everything it says and does commends Christ. It will not seek to move others by all too personal, direct influence, by impure interference in the life of another. It will not take pleasure in pious, human fervor and excitement. It will rather meet the other person with the clear Word of God and be ready to leave him alone with this Word for a long time, willing to release him again in order that Christ may deal with him.”
~D. Bonhoeffer, Life Together
It might be time to read that little — powerful — book once again.