It was time to go.
The night before I had confessed my greatest sin.
She gave me the book, as I was getting ready to leave.
I put it in my satchel and told myself I’d read it on the plane.
I did start it, but my seat mate was a bit too observant.
Shame’s tendrils began creeping in…
The word “Jezebel” was used early on in the book.
I didn’t really want to think about the meaning of that word.
“Don’t be a Jezebel!” flooded my mind.
The book went back into my satchel.
A year later I moved out to try and get my head together. I did take the book with me, wondering if I’d have the courage to read it as I was re-evaluating my life. In the meantime, I had come across a couple of bloggers who were willing to boldly tell their stories. Sarah Markley and Serena Woods were open and honest about their choices, and were willing to share the ugly truth of the fallout from those choices. I was living the fallout of mine…
I ordered Serena’s book, Grace is for Sinners. As I read her story, she mentioned the Beth Moore book I had already pushed aside. I did the next logical thing…pushing hers aside, I opened the book I had received a year earlier. My heart and mind were now open to the reality of my sin.
Needless to say, between the two books, I understood what I had done and how this could happen to a “good Christian wife and mother”. Through the grace they bestowed, I knew there was a way back for me.
I’m an avid reader of Darla, Sarah, and Serena’s blogs.
I know they are honest women who share God’s truth.
The truth boldly spoken so I could hear…and learn.
In her most recent post, Serena states:
God lets evil plans form and emerge as they wreak havoc, only to thwart them and turn it into something that brings the beaten closer to Him. Evil exists, but ultimately answers to Him. Pain pierces, but only brings the broken closer to Him. Sin bulldozes blooming gardens only to make room for the flowers of mercy.
Everything answers to God. Everything has it’s time in the sun, it’s fifteen minutes (years?), but none of it has the last word.
No matter where your path has taken you, no matter what you’ve done, no matter what has been done to you, none of it gets the last word on your life. God does and He does what He says. ~Serena Woods, “The Last Word”
Sin bulldozes blooming gardens
only to make room for the flowers of mercy.