I feel I’ve been in a strait place for quite some time.
A narrow, difficult passage has been my path for a few years now.
Some may say it’s by my own doing, others will see I may have been pulled along, and still others could care less…saying, “she gets what she deserves!”
I am so thankful, in these difficult years, that I have found the Source of my strength. In Him.
I know I am where I am because God is sovereign. And in His sovereignty, He will test me for His glory. However, the fires of sanctification can become so painful that, sometimes, I seek an escape from the heat. Usually it only means the melting was stifled and I must start again from a cold, hard place. In that process I am learning to remain in the fire. It’s much less painful in the long run.
In reality (vs. fantasy) I can rest in Him instead of worrying what “others” may think. If He is sovereign then He is in control. It is by His will I am in this place. Strait or wide open…HE directs my path.
I found this passage awhile back.
I think Murray makes my point…or I made his (since he wrote in the 1800’s)…
“In time of trouble, say, “First, He brought me here. It is by His will I am in this strait place; in that I will rest.” Next, “He will keep me here in His love, and give me grace in this trial to behave as His child.” Then say, “He will make the trial a blessing, teaching me lessons He intends me to learn, and working in me the grace He means to bestow.” And last, say, “In His good time He can bring me out again. How, and when, He knows.”
Therefore say, “I am here
(1) by God’s appointment,
(2) in His keeping,
(3) under His training,
(4) for His time.”
~Andrew Murray, 1895
Trusting in God’s sovereignty today.
And now, just as you accepted Christ Jesus as your Lord, you must continue to live in obedience to Him. Let your roots grow down into Him and draw up nourishment from Him, so you will grow in faith, strong and vigorous in the truth you were taught. Let your lives overflow with thanksgiving for all He has done. ~Colossians 2:6-7