God will make a way when there seems to be no way…remember, this?
It’s old, but true.
Truths don’t change.
I believe in Truth with a capital T.
I also believe we need to feel the consequences of our choices. Some would say I’m very old school, and I might be, but I don’t believe in making excuses for our bad choices. They are just that: choices we made which were NOT good.
Unfortunately, I’ve had to see the consequences of the bad choices of people I have loved deeply. I’ve had this “value” challenged. And, because it’s true, I still believe it.
When the day came for us to journey with our son through his consequences, it was gut-wrenching nausea from beginning to end.
The walk down the long hallway,
Heels clicking against the linoleum,
Security cameras watching every move,
Grasping the bond that would bring release…
These images burn within my soul.
However, knowing, at the end of the hallway, we would be able to hold our first-born in our arms and take him safely home, those were the thoughts that got me through the day.
Yet, it was only the first step in a very long journey.
Naively, I imagined the worst had already happened.
As we walked with him, sandwiched between us, Phat’s phone rang.
“I’m getting my son out of jail, what do you want?”
“Oh, Mr. Phat, I’m so sorry! I just wanted to warn you that the media has been informed of your son’s arrest. I’m so very sorry.”
By the time we made it to Grandmother’s house, it had already been announced on the radio. We sat down to watch the 6 o’clock news. As the broadcaster began the top story for the weekend, my son’s face appeared across the screen. I heard the scream before I realized it was me.
Waiting for dinner,
Wondering where our lives would lead,
Agonizing over the events of the past week,
I’m sure I must have been trembling…
My son came to embrace me.
Then, he began to sing in my ear,
God will make a way
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength
For each new day
He will make a way
He will make a way
Five years later, this song plays through my mind.
It’s my turn.
I believe in Truth and Consequences…
God will make a way.