Sunday morning in the treetops with a pot of vanilla chamomile tea, my bible, and a new book. It was a bit chilly so I snuggled in my green comforter and watched God blow the wind through the branches, rustling the leaves, reminding me of His majesty. I spent most of my time in Psalm 31 and 32, letting the truth pour over me.
His righteousness delivers me.
His goodness overwhelms me.
His loyal love keeps me.
I will hide in His shelter.
I repent so times of refreshing may come.
I’ve experienced too many trials in the past four years. Way too many trials. The type of trials you wouldn’t wish on your worst enemy. (Well, I hope you wouldn’t.) I’ve held strong through some, by the grace of God. And I’ve fallen in others, by His same grace. And now I’m seeking His face more. Can we ever seek Him enough?
So many of us in blogland talk about being real, but don’t desire to share our struggles until we have them figured out. I am one of those many. I need more clarity before I speak, not wanting to give a false testimony and lead anyone astray by my foolish words. I hope to be able to speak more freely when I understand better what He is teaching me. Until then, I’m leaning on His words to bring me through these fires of testing.
He has a plan and purpose for my life that I have yet to grasp (Jer. 29:11). Someday I’ll see it as He does (1 Cor. 13:12). When I stand before Him at the Bema Seat He will reveal to me what it was all about (2 Cor. 5:10). At that time He’ll give me a white stone with a name written on it…a name He knows. A name He will give to me, in that moment, to help make all things clear (Rev. 2:17). I imagine my questions will be satisfied. I believe it will be a moment of revelation like I’ve never experienced. And I will “get” what it was He willed for me…all of those days ordained for me and written in His book before even one came into existence (Psalm 139).
For now, I still do see darkly.
(Thank you, Jesus, it’s not dark to you.)
But, I am trusting in Him.
He promises to bring me to a complete end.
He promises to confirm me blameless, in Him, on that day.
And may the Lord make your love grow and overflow to each other and to everyone else, just as our love overflows toward you. As a result, Christ will make your hearts strong, blameless, and holy when you stand before God our Father on that day when our Lord Jesus comes with all those who belong to Him.
~1 Thessalonians 3:12-13
He will keep you strong right up to the end, and He will keep you free from all blame on the great day when our Lord Jesus Christ returns. God will surely do this for you, for He always does just what He says, and He is the one who invited you into this wonderful friendship with His Son, Jesus Christ our Lord. ~1 Corinthians 1:8-9
You were His enemies, separated from Him by your evil thoughts and actions, yet now He has brought you back as His friends. He has done this through His death on the cross in His own human body. As a result, He has brought you into the very presence of God, and you are holy and blameless as you stand before Him without a single fault, if indeed you continue in the faith firmly established and steadfast, and not moved away from the hope of the gospel that you have heard, which was proclaimed in all creation under heaven…