I had a dream of being a missionary.
I did marry a preacher and thought, “close enough.”
I had a dream of being a teacher, and it happened for a time.
But not as long as I had hoped.
I had a dream of raising children who would walk into the world as strong Christian leaders in their communities.
I had a dream of a marriage that would weather any storm.
I thought all of these were God-given dreams. I felt sure He had placed these things within my heart and mind and was working them out for His glory.
The culmination of the dreams didn’t happen as I had hoped.
But, they did happen…
I was a missionary in England for a year. And at a local health clinic for a time.
I was a preacher’s wife for a season, before he chose another profession.
I was a teacher for quite a few years, until health issues became cumbersome.
I have amazing kids who are strong Christians in spite of my bumbling efforts; but their place of leadership is a bit different than I had anticipated (never expected jail or public school).
My marriage is struggling to weather our latest storm; but I do see God working in both of our lives.
I guess I had the dreams for a time.
And as the seasons change, I’m seeing glimpses of His glory shining through…
Sometimes, in the darkest of nights, it’s so hard to catch a glimpse.
But, even when I am not faithful…He remains so.
I’m seeking Him, again.
Looking to Him, alone.
Not the works of my hands, but His.
Come now, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will go to such and such a city, and spend a year there and engage in business and make a profit.” Yet you do not know what your life will be like tomorrow. You are just a vapor that appears for a little while and then vanishes away. Instead, you ought to say, “If the Lord wills, we will live and also do this or that.” ~James 4:13-15
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD,
“plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
For momentary, light affliction is producing for us an eternal weight of glory far beyond all comparison, while we look not at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen; for the things which are seen are temporal, but the things which are not seen are eternal.
~2 Corinthians 4:17-18
My hope is in the Lord and whatever He wills for my life…
I pray I will surrender to His will.
(Thanks, Alece, for stirring thoughts and comments.)