It’s Thursday. That means Celebrate Recovery Step Study Group.
Don’t get me wrong. I love going. It is the highlight of my week. I’m part of an amazing group of women who have chosen to vulnerably share their lives with me. And vice versa. We can talk about the deepest stuff we’re enduring and no one tries to “fix” anybody. Mind you, we pray for one another, but we leave the work of the Holy Spirit to the Holy Spirit.
Following the guidelines from scripture, we bear one another’s burdens, confess our sins to each other, and pray for one another.
And we do the deep, deep, deeeeeeeeep work of looking at our lives. Inside and out.
We’re on the fourth step of the twelve-step program:
Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.
Which corresponds to the fourth principle in Celebrate Recovery: Openly examine and confess my faults to God, to myself, and to another person whom I trust. “Happy are the pure in heart”
It’s the dreaded step. The hardest one for most. To actually look at all the events of your life and come to grips with what you have done, and what’s been done to you. To get all the hurts out on paper, leaving nothing behind. It’s tough stuff.
It means getting completely honest with yourself. And to be perfectly clear, not many people want to do that. It’s much easier to blame others than to look at yourself. It’s much easier to stay in denial and pretend we’re victims, rather than realize how we may have victimized.
To take responsibility for my own part.
It doesn’t sound like it would be the highlight of my week. But it is. It is the most freeing time. To be in a group of people who are doing the hard work of the body. Sticking with one another through the toughest stuff. Not walking away but coming alongside. To encourage and build up each other through His Spirit working among us.
To share without judgment.
To be loved even when we’re unlovely.
To give compassion when most of us have only felt condemnation.
The church lived out.
Yaaaaay!! It’s Thursday.
If you could use a safe place to work out your crud, you might want to look for a Celebrate Recovery group. It’s not just for the addict. It’s for the Body.