Veritgo has had me down for days. SOOOO frustrating!!! Everytime I think it’s passed, I move too quickly, or slightly tilt my head, and the room starts to sway once again. This isn’t the first time it’s ever happened, but it does seem to be more violent than in the past.
I have tons of things I want to accomplish, but each time I try I have to go back to bed. Even sleep isn’t helping. I must move too much during the night, cause all I can remember is lots of rocking and nausea, then I awaken very weak. So…yeah…at this point in time, I’m feeling like the whole of life…me…my life…is one great obstacle.
I wasn’t able to make it to church today (duh), so I’ve been listening to TV preachers. For all the negative opinions out there concerning TV evangelists, I’ve found some great ones! One guy, from Phat’s hometown, made a statement I like: God doesn’t use microwaves. He uses crockpots…slow cookers.
Okay. I know it’s not profound or even close to poetic. A bit homespun, wouldn’t you say? Yeah, but I like it. And here’s why:
We continue to shout our praise even when we’re hemmed in with troubles, because we know how troubles can develop passionate patience in us, and how that patience in turn forges the tempered steel of virtue, keeping us alert for whatever God will do next. ~Romans 5:4
He is doing a work in me…a slow work. I’m not sure how the illness is helping, but He promises troubles develop patience. And I’m learning patience is a huge virtue — one I’ve lacked most of my life. 😳 Then there’s this one:
Dear brothers and sisters, whenever trouble comes your way, let it be an opportunity for joy. For when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow. So let it grow, for when your endurance is fully developed, you will be strong in character and ready for anything. ~James 1:2-4
Strong character. Ready for anything. Hmmm…I could use some of that! And I’m to be joyous at this opportune time. Man! If that’s what I’m suppose to be feeling, I’ve got a long way to go. Must be why He keeps allowing the difficulties… ya think?
He’s forging me. Slow cooking…
No quick microwave work with God. No overnight successes.
That’s really quite helpful, actually. Some seem to say if we aren’t having success in all areas, something must be up in our relationship with God. I’m learning they’re right. Something is up. He’s fine-tuning, purging, forging me into tempered steel…
There has never been the slightest doubt in my mind that the God who started this great work in you would keep at it and bring it to a flourishing finish on the very day Christ Jesus appears. ~Philippians 1:6
The work…the cooking…the forging…it won’t be done quickly and it won’t be finished before I die.
It’s an ongoing process.
I’m in God’s crockpot.