I Was a Super-Christian


Truly. If you have ever rated Christians as good or bad, as victorious or stumbling, I was considered “good.”

Actually, I was called “goody-goody” throughout most of my growing up years. Then I went on to marry a preacher and serve in the church. As I grew older and gained a bit more “head knowledge,” I was asked to speak at various functions. One of the last functions was a ladies’ tea.

Well, tea was the attraction, but Bible study and worship were meant to be the focal point of the afternoon. I was asked to lead the worship and teach the study. Afterwards the pastor’s wife approached me to say, “Michelle, you can do it all! It’s wonderful to see God use you in so many ways.”

Words I longed to hear. Words I coveted.

“Blah, blah, blah…”

I’m not a super- Christian. And the truth is, I never was.

None of us are.

The definition of a Christian is one who knows he’s bad and needs forgiveness.

One who knows he’s bad. He’s not worthy of saving himself…or herself…

She is spiritually bankrupt.Β  She has nothing in her self that is good enough to offer the Lord.

I am spiritually bankrupt.

Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. ~Matthew 5:3


16 responses »

  1. “The definition of a Christian is one who knows he’s bad and needs forgiveness.”

    Amen, I’m so thankful for His forgiveness, because it’s true that we can’t do the first thing to save ourselves, there we are all on equal ground or like C.S. Lewis says, ‘don’t think of yourself as really special, instead think that everyone is as special as you’.;)

  2. Your post reminds me of “I’m a Christian” by Maya Angelou. I believe you may have posted it some time back. The line that sticks out the most in that poem is:

    “When I say… “I am a Christian” I’m not holier than thou. I’m just a simple sinner who received God’s good grace somehow.”

    I think there have been moments in my early walk where I thought I couldn’t do any wrong now that I was a Christian. Oh how the Lord humbled me in that. How quickly I grew to understand grace and mercy; not by my works.

    Love you Sis! You may not be a super Christian as the rest of us aren’t but you are a super sis to me πŸ™‚ XO

  3. You’re welcome, Peter.

    Now that’s a positive spin on it, Rain.
    “Don’t think of yourself as really special, instead think that everyone is as special as you…” I LOVE C.S. Lewis!!!

    Unfortunately, Gch, being a super-Christian was what we were all meant to be in my old church. It is a lie from the enemy that we will ever reach that level this side of heaven.

    I’m glad to be a super sis to a super-kewel little sis like you!!

    How’s that for cheese!?!?!? Love you!

  4. hmmmmm…..I understand what you are saying…after all we’re just some formed up bone marrow right???? LOL Yet, He tells us we can do all things through Him who strengthens…I think there needs to be the realization that we are absolutely nothing without Him, yet everything with Him…am I off here???

    Love you girl….

  5. Hey, Annie. I think it comes from legalism. We learn to “look good” on the outside and somehow feel that’s enough. Until we delve deeply into our heart-of-hearts and see what motivates us, I believe we’ll continue in the disease.

    Hey, Debs! I like seeing your avatar in my comment section. Just thought I’d let you know. πŸ˜‰

    I hear you. I know we are victorious through Christ’s blood and resurrection. His strength is the only way for us to overcome. I get that. But recently, I think I’m seeing more the depth of my depravity, how very far I am from His holiness. I praise His name that He chose me to be found in Him and rest only in His work being finished on the cross.

    But, you see, that’s the point where I got side-tracked. Somehow in my “works” for Him I felt I was adding to my goodness. And I can’t. I will do good works that He prepared beforehand for me to do, but sometimes I think those works are far different from the ones I imagine I’m to do.

    Only the works done in the Spirit will remain, all other works of “the flesh” will be purged. I’m seeing that much of what I’ve done, I’ve accomplished in my flesh. I want to be Spirit-led, not Michelle-led. You know?

  6. Completely understand…love your smile too! πŸ˜‰ There are times when the Lord speaks, and I say “great I’ll take it from here…” LOL So not ok. He is teaching day by day what it truly is to walk in His Spirit….what a wonderful journey we are on….all I want, and need is Him….

    Completely understand… πŸ™‚ Hugs!

  7. haha. love your commentary on the cheese, Michaela! (although … I did actually look up feta cheese sources currently in supermarkets, and virtually none of the commercially available feta cheeses actually come from goat’s milk. The original cheese was, of course, a Greek specialty which was always made with goat’s milk. In the US, though, it is far easier for dairy farmers to produce a very similar product with cow’s milk. Not too many dairy farmers source goat’s milk for any of their products. Just an interesting bit of info. πŸ™‚ )

  8. oops. re-reading. I didn’t just look up feta cheese for the sake of my comment. This was last year it happened. I can’t handle dairy too well, and the theory is that goat’s milk is marginally better … which happened to not be the case in my case. But anyway. That’s how I know that.

  9. Hmmm…feta isn’t always from goat’s? That’s like…cheating the cheese-lovers…isn’t it? Good to know…especially for people, like yourself, who are looking for a “safer” cheese. Thanks for sharing, Sparkle. πŸ˜‰

  10. Hi Sis πŸ™‚

    We are all only spiritually bamkrupt when we spend all day long living in our physical body and using a mind that only connects with/has a relationship with that physical body and the physical world it lives in.

    This is often the ONLY way some people ever recognise that they live in. They know NOTHING else in their minds – nothing REAL anyway – they can sometimes live in a fantasy world of that mind’s creation/rebellion.

    Sometimes this takes the place of true Spirit within them and their understanding.

    But the Truth is…. we live in TWO worlds simultaneously, not one.The Physical world of flesh AND the Spiritual immaterial world. The world of Spirit ‘leads’ the world of Mattter.

    Our relationship to Jesus is the way we can connect one to the other and is not of our doing but of His and His Father’s through the Holy Spirit.

    We are to learn (through works) how to live from that and not from the world we create in our minds that we think is ‘real’ but which falls far short of what IS.

    We are only spiritually bankrupt when we realise we have rejected His Spirit and any understanding of the True Reality of our life in Him.

    When we fall for the lie that what we as humans do that matters, not what He can do within us such that we can accept it and work with it so that our will follows His.

    When our will LEADS His we know that we have ‘forgotten’ Him once again.

    As we are realising in the current material world – even those who were once ‘rich’ ( in spirit) can again become bankrupt.

    And make VERY sure you understand Mark 3:29/Luke 12:10 clearly, there is sin that can be forgiven and sin that can never be forgiven.

    EdFromCt had a good discussion on that point over on his bible study posts recently.:-)

    It is one thing to FEEL spiritually bankrupt – quite another to actually BE such. The hard part comes in the learning to tell when we are choosing to stay in the physical we see and ‘know’ so well or when we can choose to live IN His spirit He has made available to us in our ‘bank’ account for us to use as He wishes – and as we should also.

    it is His Spirit within us that is Perfect – and we are free to chose to live though and in it – or stay where we first were ‘Aware’ and grew up, as we were taught to understand by others and by our own self.

    He has not given you a false Promise. Just an ’empty’ one – in order that you can occupy it ‘unhindered’ by anything or anyone, even ‘you’. πŸ™‚


  11. πŸ˜€ Yeah – the way you can tell is if the ingredients label says ‘pasteurized milk’ … it’s cow’s milk. A goat’s milk cheese will always say ‘pasteurized goat’s milk.’ As well a sheep’s milk will say ‘pasteurized sheep’s milk.’ (If they are pasteurized. Every once in a while there is a cheese made from raw milk. Not often though.) Basically ‘milk’ on any label automatically means cow. Any other source will say what animal it came from. Fun facts about cheese! πŸ™‚ (And I don’t know that much about cheese. The sheer volume of information and varieties of cheese there is is quite daunting. The more I know about cheese, the more I respect the industry. I just … can’t eat it. More’s the pity.)

  12. What Annie? No cheese means no pizza? 😯 Oh, poor girl!

    *munching on cheesy pizza with mincemeat and pineapples*

    Here… u want some? πŸ˜†

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